Beltaine Blessings

May is such a glorious month, isn't it? Taurus is in full reign over her earthly domain and her vibrant energy shows through in all the ways that Mother Nature expresses herself. I always say that Autumn is my favorite season but when Beltaine rolls around, I find myself reconsidering.

Despite the glory of Spring, I think it's hard right now in a lot of ways to see the beauty that surrounds us. The world is quite the hot mess, what with climate change, war, protests, suffering, and so much more, and I have found it difficult lately to feel fully alive in a time when so much is wrong. I struggle with keeping myself grounded and in the moment. I also feel weighted down with self-expectations to DO SOMETHING. The question always comes down to, "WHAT, exactly, do I do?" In the words of Billie Eilish, "What was I made for?"

That question often vexes me, however, I do have a common theme that has run through my adult life in terms of what I do. I have been an RN since 1993, an aromatherapist since the late 90s, and I've walked a goddess path for 35+ years now. I have studied several holistic modalities meant to make people feel better, and I educate people on how to advocate for themselves when it comes to their health. At my core, I am a healer. Was I made for that? I think so.

I also seem to love collecting experiences. I speak kindly of myself when I say I'm a "multi-passionate creatrix" and that's not wrong, but let's face it: I'm a motherfucking squirrel, a trash-panda raccoon, a trinket-fueled magpie. I love the shiny things, I am a dreamer, and I'm a super-duper creativity generator. I sat down with myself recently and took inventory of all the passions I've indulged in over the years, and the list was quite lengthy. Perhaps this is because I know life is short and I want to do All The Things? Who knows? What I do know is this: Instead of beating myself up about not being able to stick to one thing, I am going to embrace my ability to open myself to learning, I am going to cheer myself on for living fully, and I am going to bask in the feeling of accomplishment that comes from the growth experience as a result.

Growth. Isn't that what this season is all about? I'm all for it. How about you? May you be empowered to open yourself fully to all the experiences that manifest your own growth.

Beltaine Blessings!